Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Field Notes Five.edevault

My fifth visit to the retirement center seemed quick to me--not quite sure why. Perhaps getting back into the swing of things helped the pace a bit.

My first hour I read some sonnets to a Ms. K., a Carlisle resident. She was blind, and frail, but very kind. She shared how she and her husband met, as if eager to tell it to such a young girl as me. He, an English and Violin Major--She, a Piano Major. They met while playing at the same concert. From then on, He found excuses to go to her house to "practice piano", but her father saw right through it; "He's not here for the piano, he's here for my daughter!" he said. She then asked me if I had a "friend". I couldn't help but smirk at this question; so many times before I could not answer this question with a "yes" . Under most blessed circumstances, this question is no longer met with my straight-faced "no". I mentioned that my "friend" was also volunteering at the retirement center and also went to Erskine. She beamed--we had made a connection.

I read her some of Shakespeare's sonnets (oh, so beautiful!!) for almost an hour. Her eyes would often drift to one side; she concentrated on the words she could no longer see. I believe she enjoyed it; she would nod and smile after some of the sonnets. I wondered if she ever thought in her younger days that she would be read to by a young college student because she could not see herself. I wondered if she foresaw a day when she would not have her husband with her, whom she "missed so terribly". I wondered if she knew how she encouraged me in a small way today; she possessed more strength in her frailties than I in my youth.

In the second hour I visited Ms. Co. once again. I did not see her in my last visit, so we paused to catch up a bit. She was a tad sick--just a general cold, I think. She was glad for my timely visit--she wanted to read some of John. I began to read; she seemed a bit sleepy, but wanted me to continue. I continued through the book, realizing how many details of the story I had lost. Refreshing, to see Christ's life and power in sequence rather than in disconnected stories. I remember most the passages she marked herself--passages mostly concerning Christ's preaching to the "called of God". I stopped at chapter 15--I was sorry to leave in such a rush. I left the center for a very quick dinner (5 minutes, to be exact), then another class. Before I knew it, I was back in the college crunch after 2 hours of experiencing a wiser, less hassled perspective.

Elizabeth

Field Notes Two. mbusch

Today I spent about an hour and a half ( I had a class and was unable to stay the usual 2 hours)at the nursing home. Today was infinitely better than the last visit, partly because I had already been there once, and partly because today's job was fun. As of yet, I don't have a certain task every time I go in, so today I was informed that I would be helping decorate a pumpkin. To be completely honest, I've never decorated a pumpkin as my artistic ability is . . . sub-average.

The progression of people who came to watch was very interesting. I started out with working with just one other resident. But slowly, more and more drifted across the lobby and out of their rooms to crowd around the small card table. At first, only a few, broad suggestions were offered and it was up to me to decide how to translate them onto a pumpkin. As the time passed, I began to get more specific requests, here are some of the more interesting comments I heard today:
"Give him a snaggle tooth, and make sure one of them is gold."
"Give him earings!" "Now make sure he has dangling earings"
"Give him some bangs, now some eyebrows!"
Me: Should we paint in his nose?
Mrs. R: Naw, put some sparkling sequins on there and make it look like he has his nose peirced.
"We should give him a cavity."

These are just a few of comments I heard, just thinking back on them makes me smile. Somehow, the pumpkin was referred to as a male even though 'he' had mascara, blush, dangling earings, and a head bow. The people there are so adorable and content with the smallest act of mercy that we give them.

Prior Thoughts Five.edevault

I am planning to go to the retirement center today around 3 PM. I hope this visit will go well; I feel pretty well rested, so there won't be a high risk of falling asleep while I'm there. These last few visits have encountered my heightened fatigue from the past few weeks...

As my visits will soon come to an end, I wonder how to say...well, good bye? Not that I will never see these residents again--I pray that I will. However, more than likely I will not have very much time to visit them often...if at all. How do you tell that to someone? I will not say that directly, but I need to indicate that my visits will not continue as they used to. This troubles me; how do you invest so much time in something, then hardly have any time for it after its over? I'll have to think about this, as I often have over the past week...

Elizabeth

Field Notes one. mbusch

Because my first time at the nursing home was the last day of classes before fall break, I've had a lot of time to think about my time spent there. I went over in time to participate in their 10:30 Bible study. However, when I got there, the Bible and study pamphlet were thrust into my hands and I was told to read. We read two passages of scripture and the blurb for that day, sang a few hymns, and I prayed.
My biggest fear (aside from being nothing but an annoyance to the administration there) was that the people would not be able to understand anything I said! Older people are able to understand lower voices more easily, so I was afraid that my voice was too high to be easily understood. After I finished reading, I asked if anyone had anything they would like to say before I prayed, to my great relief, one of the women (I need a bit more time to remember all of their names) said, "You have a very good speaking voice. I was able to understand all of it."
I stayed after the devotion, talking to a few of the residents and helping them with their excersies. All in all, it was a rather awkward 2 hours, but I feel it was profitable and I look forward to the next visit.

Friday, October 19, 2007

Field Notes Four.edevault

The fourth visit was productive, but tiring. I began the two hours by reading some poetry to a Ms. W., who is a Carlisle resident. I asked her how her she had been; she responded she had not been very well the last few weeks, but that she pressed on. She is a sweet lady.

I read her some Keats ("St. Agnes' Day", I think), and she gently closed her eyes and listened. At first I thought she was asleep, but no--I would sometimes find her eyes staring my mouth, intent on listening. I could not really finish the poem, since her son and daughter-in-law came to visit. They were kind enough to let me "finish" the poem (which I really just shortened) before they visited. Ms. W. encouraged me to "continue my good work"; I am glad she thought it good, profitable.

I then traveled down to the Wylie center, but everyone was asleep; Ms. Co., who never "naps", was also gone from her room. I sat with some Wylie residents at the T.V., then decided I better make myself useful back in Carlisle. I was immediately put to use--I read more poetry to quite a gathering of residents; some were very attentive, and some were fast asleep. One man attempted to escape from his chair several times; a woman sitting beside him kept chiding "Mr. Bo., you sit still now--I'm tryin' to listen!" The alarm attached to his belt (which nurses use to keep the residents in seats and such) kept sounding as I read some more Keats, bits of Emerson, and two poems by Elizabeth Browning. Although I pictured a more...idyllic setting when reading such romantic poetry, this particular scenario portrayed poetry's more, well...transcendent qualities. It was part amusing, part profound.

Elizabeth

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Prior Thoughts One

Tomorrow is my first day of going over to the nursing home. To be honest, I'm not quite sure what to expect. I was told to be there in time for the bible study, and I'm glad of that because I believe that the Bible is by far the most important book to read. In response to Elizabeth's comment about being nervous before going over, I completely understand. I feel the same way; I know in my head that it would be very difficult for me to disappoint the residents. If I've learned nothing from working with OP's as a pastor's daughter (which include regular visits to nursing homes), working as a nurse in a doctor's office, and having my grandmother live with us, it's that OP's love the younger generation. All I need to do is show up, smile, nod and they'll love having me there. I keep telling myself that. I can do nothing more except do my best and pray that my presence there will bring glory to God.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Prior Thoughts Four.edevault

Sometimes I feel nervous about going to the retirement center. I don't understand why--nothing I cannot do is required of me. Perhaps its just the fear of messing up--of being unnatural, or boring. There is no reason for such fear...it could be my "downfall", a way that I will not enjoy serving others. I do enjoy it--I like to see their happy faces, wise and beautifully wrinkled. Some are harsh and grumpy, but most are kind and understanding. I need to take joy in serving others, because it brings others joy. Its fulfilling, but its also a struggle to maintain the right perspective.

Elizabeth

Monday, October 15, 2007

Field Notes Two.DhudSmith

Today, I met with 5 OPs.

The first was a WWII veteran. He had stories to tell. Many stories. His speech was slurred and slow, but him memory was obviously very clear. He piloted B-24 bombers in Europe and Africa throughout the war. He also manned an outpost during pearl harbor. He recalled these events to me with alarming clarity. He spoke very little about anything else. Perhaps he didn't want to bore me. Or, perhaps those horrific incidents found a more lasting place in his memory. Hid did speak of his wife, however. She lives nearby and he wanted to call her on the telephone. For some reason, the nurses would not let him call her. I didn't understand why a man couldn't call his wife. He doesn't look healthy.

While talking to the veteran, a woman wheeled over between us and began talking. She had a young aura about her. She still has a grasp on the senses (a grasp rarely found in Carlisle). I didn't talk to her very much. She was too excited about the "hot tub" she was about to enjoy to spend much time with me.

After the hot-tub lady, I met with another man, a reader, who apparently spends most of his time in his room. He was a relatively pleasant fellow with a relatively normal life. His daughter buys him books with extra-large print. He reads them constantly. Some are good books, some are not (at least in my opinion). His approach to reading interests me. I pick my books very carefully and read them deliberately. He just reads. He doesn't mind so much what he is reading. He just picks up and reads. He forms his opinions after he is done. There is a wisdom to that. I think I allow my preconceptions to shape my opinions of what I read. I would like to try to emulate this approach.

I then met with the same woman that I spent most of my last time with. Again, I read her the paper. She was excited about an article about her little home-town. She knew many of the people mentioned. She is such a wise woman. She possesses such a profound contentment about everything. She has more than most people, even people of her age. She trusts God for her peace.

Lastly, I met with a German lady who spends all of her time in her room. She scares me a little to be honest. She gives me the impression that I am intruding upon her privacy. I don't feel welcome. Even so, she has a very interesting story. She lived through the Nazi occupation. She and her family have lost so much. Her husband is dead; her senses are failing. I do not think she is content.

Field Notes One. DHudSmith

After a quick tour of the grounds, I was left in the room with a most fascinating OP. She is 94, I believe, and can no longer see well. So, I read to her.

First, I read through a list of books on cassette that she was interested in buying from. Most of the titles sounded worthless. She did find one, however, that was of interest to her--a book about small-town life in
America. I wonder why this particularly appeals to her. After reading through the advertisement, I read her an article from the local newspaper. The article spoke about the national education standards and how South Carolina, though having relatively low test scores, maintains high test standards. She seemed to know a good deal about the subject and had several strong opinions concerning the matter. We also read a section in the paper entitled "Dr. Gott". When she still lived at her home, this OP had an herb garden. Dr. Gott often talks about natural medicine and the use of herbs in medicine, so OP1 likes to read him. The paper finished, she asked me if I would read a passage of scripture for her. She had recently listened to two conflicting sermons over Luke 16 and needed resolution. So, I read the passage to her, and we discussed both sides of the argument. It gives me great joy to discuss my God with someone of so many years who has such a hunger for truth.

The reading of Luke 16 brought to her mind a particularly funny story. Luke
16: 21 "And desiring to be fed with the crumbs which fell from the rich man's table: moreover the dogs came and licked his sores." Years ago, when she had lived on a farm out in Iva, South Carolina, she knew a colored family living near by. She was over talking to the family when one of the members started calling out, "Moreover! Moreover!". She asked, "why are you calling out 'moreover'?"
"The dog. you know from Luke 16. "moreover the dogs".

Well. I thought it was funny, funnier still being a true story.

And so our dialog continued. Mostly we talked about her life. Her years spent teaching in
Egypt, her life on a farm, her husbands many professions, and anything that was of importance to her. I learned a great deal. I learned, at least second hand, what it is really like to live in that generation. Fascinating. Also, convicting. I truly do not know material hardship. I do not know discomfort.

Looking at and listening to her, I can believe that everything in life--the joys, the losses, the pain, the passion--has a purpose. For she has seen all (mostly anyway) of life and sees every moment of it as one picture with one purpose, and that purpose God's. The seeming vanity does indeed have purpose.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Field Notes Three.edevault

My third visit to the retirement center went well. Unfortunately, I came during many of the residents' rest time--many were sound asleep. So, to not disturb anyone, I sat and watched t.v. with Ms. M, who also let me share her newspaper (Greenville News, to be exact). She asked me if I read the news often. I told her that since arriving to college I haven't been very well-versed in the goings-on of the world; i also told her that Erskine had the opportunity to have the New York Times delivered to its students, of which I mainly perused the arts section.

After an hour, I went to visit Ms. Co. again. We read through the rest of Romans that day (from chapter 9 on); I interjected my thoughts about the passages and asked her opinion. It seems we agreed on a lot of things. It was interesting to see the passages she had underlined--some in pencil, some in red pen--and to related them to her growth in insight. I have no idea how long she has had this Bible, but you could tell some markings were fresher than others. What would have made her mark certain passages 10, 20 years ago verses the ones she marks now? What events in her life would have shifted her focus from one verse to the other? Books inspire questions about the previous reader.

I also started John with Ms. Co. yesterday, since she expressed an interest in it. Hopefully this reading will be as nice as the last.

I felt rather out of it yesterday--I think work and fatigue is finally getting to me. I don't think it interfered with my work at the retirement center too much. I pray not.

elizabeth

Friday, October 12, 2007

Prior Thoughts Three.edevault

Hudson and I will soon be heading off to the retirement center for a third visit. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to go yesterday (our usual time, but who knows how that will work out in the long run)--college work being the culprit. However, I think the visit will go well today...if my fatigue doesn't catch up with me, that is...

I'm bringing along another poetry book (Blake's poems), just in case any of the residents will want to hear some poetry...

elizabeth

Prior Thoughts Three.DHudSmith

I am trying not to view volunteering at the retirement as an assignment. As our service is indeed required, this is a difficult task. Is required volunteering fundamentally different than "non-required" volunteering? Though it may very likely be, I do not believe it must be. It is true that I would not have volunteered had I not been required; however, being a Christian, I must relinquish any ability to do good of myself anyway. I believe that I will continue to volunteer after this assignment is completed.

My thoughts thus far are only tenuously connected to the actual service I am about to offer; I will attempt to stop abstracting. I (as always seems to be the case) really do not know what to expect from the retirement center today. I hope that I will be of some help and encouragement to someone.

Hudson out.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Prior Thoughts One.DHudSmith

Actual Date: 4 Oct. 2007

We are about to head over to the retirement center for our first volunteer session. I do not know what to expect from this project. In all honesty, I do not have a great desire to serve. When confronted with sacrifice, something inside me revolts. What will I profit? Why should I spend my time?--Such thinking is a result of my sin nature--that part of me which, though I am beneath the grace of God, I still must struggle against. I hope that, as part of this project, I will come to value serving others. We shall see.

Hudson out.

Prior Thoughts Two.DHudSmith

Again we go to serve. I do not know what I will be doing--probably talking to some OPs -- very old (and very dear) people. I hope to visit more than one OP today. They all seem hungry for company. During our last visit, the nurses pointed out some OPs who never leave their rooms. Perhaps I will try to visit some of them.

Hudson out.

Field Notes Two.edevault

The second visit to the retirement center was pleasant and enjoyable. I first visited the Carlisle section of the center, where I made little Halloween bags for some of the residents. They had sticky letters you could stick to the bags. I first spelled "Happy Halloween", then "Boo!"; it took me several minutes to find a "P" for the word "happy", since all the letters stuck together, clinging to each other for dear life. I also used some paint for the bags; I painted alternating vivid green and black letters for one bag, and then put some google-eyes on it (for the Halloween spirit...). After that, I decided to read some poetry to them. They all gathered around, silent but attentive; timid smiles would creep into their faces. Such a small gift gave such happiness. I also read some poetry to the Carlisle residents--selections from Dylan Thomas and one from Thomas Gray. I believed they enjoyed the reading, but by that time they were a little worn out by the antics of such a youngster as me. It was then that I decided to pay a second visit to Ms. Col.

Ms. Col. seemed more than welcome to invite me into her little room--very tidy and practically littered with family pictures. I asked her how her day went, and she proceeded to show me more of her family and young pictures of herself. She had reddish-auburn hair and a serious, but delicate, face. She seemed a woman of quiet purpose, which is an accurate portrayal of her character today. I then read more of Romans to her; today we got to chapter 9. I enjoyed peeking up every once in a while to see her quiet, steady face nod in approval and smile in reverie. There exists a bond between Christian believers that transcends age, and that is Scripture. That certainly happened today.

Elizabeth

Prior Thoughts Two.edevault

In 10 minutes I will have begun my second trip to the retirement center, and I have a reassuring familiarity with the place and my duties now that I feel I won't cause the world to implode if something bad happens.

I'm bringing my Norton Anthology of poetry for today, just to see if any of the residents would like to have some poetry read to them. It will be interesting to see what they prefer in their poetry as well as their prose, particularly in contrast to mine. One thing about reading to someone is being sensitive to their needs and preferences.

Well, I'm off!

Elizabeth

Pre-Service Notes.DHudSmith

Actual Date: Sept. 2007

We met at the Due West retirement center for volunteer orientation/training today. Like everything in this town, the meeting was rigorously outlined and executed. Even so, it was enjoyable. The people at the retirement center have an air of playful contentedness. One man in particular, an elderly retiree who is also volunteering, possesses a beautifully wise yet comical demeanor. There is a lot to be learned from these who have seen so much of life.

Hudson

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Field Notes One.edevault

Well, I just got back from the first DW Retirement Center visit.


The administrator and one of the staff took us on an initial, "getting to know you" tour of the facilities. I think we'll be mainly be working in the Wylie center, where there are those who need help reading but are not considerably hindered, in case we might be put in situations we don't know how to handle.

After the tour, we were immediately put to work; Robert and I decided to work together. We first visited a Ms. "Col.". We tentatively knocked on her door, asking if she would like us to sit and talk with her. She seemed more than welcome to let us in. Robert and I discussed our backgrounds and our college life so far, just as an introductory phase. After that, we read Romans, chapters 1-2, I reading the first and Robert reading the second. Reading Romans again, I realized how very simple the language is, yet how very beautiful. Perhaps it is because these words gave (and continue to give) me glorious life that I admired their beauty, their humility, their holiness. Reading Scripture aloud gives a new perspective to the reader--I personally have to pay more attention to exactly what it is I'm saying. Because of this, I draw more from the text. Not only was the reading a blessing to Ms. Col. , it was a great blessing to me.

Next we visited Ms. Cx, who invited us to sit with her in the patio as we talked and introduced ourselves. By this time our visit was winding down, and we only got to talk for a little while. Ms. Cx spoke of her past homes and the books she had recently read (One called "America", I think, where the author traveled from city to city and lived in each for a time). We then followed her to the T.V. room where we sat and talked among other Wylie residents, some of which told us old Erskine stories and asked about students we might know who sometimes visited the center.

Although not all of the visit was strictly reading, there was another "reading" occurring in me--the ability to read personalities. Although I may want to deny it, there is a considerable difference in the thinking of retirement-age person and my own generation. It's these differences that sometimes made it difficult to understand certain sentiments and meanings at the center. It's a new language that fascinates me, and it's something I am willing to learn.

Elizabeth

Prior Thoughts One.edevault

I am looking forward to future opportunities there--however, any new environment takes some getting used to. Thinking about the project, I suddenly become nervous, thinking I will do something wrong or forget some obscure yet important piece of information. In this particular line of service, one needs to take great care to know the do's and don'ts.

I wish I knew what books to bring, what things that need to be read--yet how can I know that if I don't know the residents? I think ahead perhaps too much in these scenarios when I don't have any experience in what I'm doing. Hopefully the staff will gives us a tour (as I'm sure they will). I'll just have to take it easy until then...

Elizabeth

Pre-Service Note One.edevault

In a couple of hours will be our first trip to the DW Retirement Center, where we (Hudson, Robert, and I) will take the first steps of our service learning project.

Hudson, Robert, and I are the only ones going tonight: Megan needed her TB results in order to start working at the retirement center, and David...well, I'm not sure. We'll have to talk about common times to meet when our group collaborates next...

Hudson and I actually ran into the retirement center administrator today at the service fair convo, where we confirmed our time slots. Hopefully this time will work best for everyone, but our confusing, energy-sapping freshman lives have yet to give us an easy, simultaneous schedule. But, we're doing good so far.

Post later,
Elizabeth